free cookies and asses that fall off

I don't know why but i always get really excited when i get to customize my very own blog. it is like getting a free cookie.

ok. so i'm running away. i guess this is how I'm going to cope with all this. I usually do really bizarre things when i miss someone badly enough. But this time, I am leaving. I am going to live somewhere for a whole month and work my ass off until it falls off again. and I can't wait. I leave on Friday.

My horoscope said I was going to make a whole lot of money this year writing. that's right. writing. that is the funniest thing i ever heard. until one day I read something funnier. i read it again in a new horoscope. holy crap.

i don't know if i'm moving for good. looks like no. again. it is funny how i try to leave. then, i try to leave again and then, once more. well, for about the 8th time, it looks like everything I've been working toward has fallen through. Except, I'm okay with this for the most part. Colorado is a great place to wait. I don't mind waiting as long as I have something I'm working toward. And I just subscribed to a real cool magazine that is gonna teach me how to find work abroad.

wait. i just realized. maybe i don't want to leave. maybe that is why i'm still here. this is a possibility that I am not willing to admit. staying is for losers. if i stay, i am a loser. if i go, i am a winner. yes, i know. dumb.